Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king

Psalm 33:2-3
"2 Praise the LORD with the harp;
. Make melody to Him with an instrument of ten strings.
3 Sing to Him a new song;
. Play skillfully with a shout of joy."

hanyuen
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I am
[HIGHLY FAVOURED]
χαριτόω
charitoō

[DEEPLY LOVED]
ἀγάπη
agapē

[GREATLY BLESSED]
εὐλογέω
eulogeō

-6:25 pm

Life in my Spirit,
a sparkle in my eyes.
A gentle breeze,
a whisper,
hush.
hear the ram's horn in the distant.
declare the victory.
draw nearer.
shout.

it is finished.

pastor lian shared about a particular cgl who was convinced he heard God will prosper him and set up a business.

But his business collapsed.

but he refused to be ashamed.

He hung on to the word, and trusted God, and didnt feel ashamed, realising that he is the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.

and pastor Lian said this: its not over, until Jesus is glorified!

and wow... its like that campus service... when pastor chin shared about running with endurance the race set before us.

he got another job, the guy who sold security glass... think it was a recent sermon.
6 months no sale.
the next month, he met a friend who intro-ed him to a contact, and made a sale for the entire year.

God works mightily for people who trust in His goodness and grace.


the point is this: sometimes we screw up... but hey.... look to God (=

that one time... at the beginning of the year, i was trusting God to take care of my finances. and i prospered; i had extra, quite a few hundred actually.
then the next thing i knew... i thought i'll buy an acoustic bass for cg.
some of the others who tried said it wasn't loud enough.
i didnt want to arugue or anything.
but one campus, i went to buy, because i had gotten a very good deal from the storeperson.

but i didnt factor in the price of the bag. in fact, it was the bag that busted my budget. i almost had to customise a hardcase bag for the guitar. in the end i got a giant pink ritter bag, which i carry around. ya some of you have seen it.

its PINK! how can anyone NOT miss it??

anyway... i was kinda regretting it during that campus service that day.
cause it just suddenly struck me, i had NO MONEY left until the end of the month.
but i was too paiseh to tell people... so i just quietly told God during the p&w.

i was sharing with jo, how sometimes.... i pray till... i don't know what else to say... until i'm left with a verse. that happened that day.

you know... pastor prince once said that sometimes when he try to pray smart, elaborate prayers, he can't. neither could i.

i mean.... all i ended up doing was closing my eyes, and repeating the words:

"I shall not die, but shall surely live, to declare the good works of the Lord"

over and over, the entire time.
until I heard God speak back and say: You shall not hunger, you shall have enough to eat.

so i amen-ed it. and waited to watch.

i mean... in my heart... i was still abit disbelieving. i mean... no $$. and i've made up my mind (quite stubbornly) i won't ask anyone for money.

i tried you see. i asked my mum. but shes so.... stubborn. and she wont give a SINGLE cent.

at that point... how to have faith..... hmm?

your own parents rejected your plea for HELP!

with no one to turn to, i turned to God... and secured my heart in His promise. i dont know how, i dont care also... i just know He loves me, and He'll take care of me. "I shall surely not die, but shall live to declare the good works of the Lord"

and as i continue to meditate on this... faith started to burn again. like a slow flame. from little embers, i fanned into a huge roaring conflagaration.

and honestly... i didnt go hungry.

i mean... i thought like daddy God would drop like $1000 in my bank account or smth.

but nada... no $.

but you know what?

i'm very well-taken care of.

when i needed food, there was food at home to bring to work.
when i didn't have any food to bring to work, my colleagues provided.

once... a certain colleague of mine brought home-cooked food. but she was meeting a friend; a last-minute decision. so she passed the food to me.

another time, i was OT-ing late late late at night. and usually people left around 6.45. so the PA of the boss suddenly walked over to me, before she left, and gave me two curry puffs

here's pictorial proof!



once before a certain BS service, or was it sunday service... jolene's brother, out of the blue, msg me that he was buying tea leaf egg, and asked me if i wanted.

sometimes... it was my church friends who blessed me with food.

i mean... the more i see these, the more amazed i become.

you see the more i started to trust God, and have faith in Him who is my faith... the more good things i begin to see.

Jeremiah says a cursed man is one who cannot see when good happens to him. but i'm blessed because my eyes have not seen, but my heart has believed.

then the Spirit brought to my remembrance of this person i lent money to last year. he said he'll return me near the end of jan. so iwas like... prompted to start asking him about it.

now... my ez-link card's running out of value due to my concession ending... so i had to start asking.

after a bit of to and fro, to and fro... finally got back $30 from him.

i mean... even i am amazed at my daddy God sometimes....

hmm...?

but the point i wanted to make was this: hey... I'm the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. I'm the Son of the Right Hand, I'm seated in heavenly places with Christ Jesus, blessed with every spiritual blessing.

all i did was pray, and believe His Word.

you know it would have been so easy for daddy God to give me a $1000 in my bank account. but i know i'll splurge it, or worse still, buy lots of food and stuff my face silly. and then i grow fat. and that defeats the purpose of me training for NAFA hmm....?

so praise Jesus amen?

--

you know... i have such a deep sense (i shouldnt use the word feeling aye?) of His Presence. snd there's such... peace.... i just read a daily devotion by Pastor prince about peace.

"Firstly, you will find that what would normally cause you much care and anxiety will no longer be the case. Secondly, not only will everything turn out well, but you will also be very blessed. When Jesus, the Prince of Peace is your peace, this is what happens. And this is exactly what happened for the following people in our church."


both have been fulfilled in my little story.

and now to conclude... i was telling jo... that actually i AM disappointed about not being able to play bass for cg. i dont know what she was saying la.
first she say something like "i didnt say you cannot"
then next she say "no.." or something.

or something ok?

im also not sure la....

no worries... hey.... God is my peace. if this has happened, He'll surely turn it around.


i'm not about to be like Matt 13: the thorny ground guy

pastor prince once shared something so powerful it still sticks with me: "hold onto to the word, until the word holds on to me."

really... that was what i experienced. that i didnt know what to do... but during that p&w, i sensed His Presence so strongly. i always sense His Presence... but that one moment... it was as if He was by my side, listening to me as i repeat: Lord, i shall not die but shall surely live, to declare the works of the Lord.... and as i repeat and repeat... i lost all consciousness of the person to my left and right. i lost the very sense i was in church.

i was someone where time does not flow, and my Words rang out as truth.

thats when i can't hold on anymore, and the Word holds on to me. in fact... it felt as if Jesus was saying those Words to me, instead of me saying to myself. ever had that feeling? where the Word Himself, holds on to you.

every cell, every fibre in your soul, BECOMES that Word. hmm i suppose its hard to describe.

that would be why paul, was it paul? or john? prayed to the Ephesians... should be paul then. that they might know the length, breath, height, depth, whatever, of the love of Christ that surpasses all knowledge....

the word know there in greek is "experential knowledge"
the first-hand knowledge of Christ... His Love that surpasses all knowledge.
the greek phrasing is something like "surpasses all human knowledge"

its a wonderful contradiction. if you read the bible carefully, you'll notice Jesus and the apostles alway seeming to speak in oxymorons. but if you understood Jesus, you'll be so blessed.

paul prayed for people to experience first-hand the love of Christ, the kind of knowledge that is beyond human knowledge... why? because its the kind of understanding that goes beyond knowing... its the kind of understanding that has experienced.

Jesus Himself said in [Matt 16:15]
"Who do YOU say i am?"

to Simon Peter.

this was after He asked those around Him, who they thought He was.

Simon Peter had a revelation of Jesus Christ... and He answered... and His answer is recorded in history.

who do YOU think Jesus is?
what do YOU believe?

hmmm...?

i'm still going to buy that amplifier... even if jo doesnt really want me to use it... im going to buy it.
im not going against her.... im buying for myself... not to use in cg...

maybe if shes in a good mood or smth, ill ask her: "just once? pretty please?"

hahahaha.... im kidding... im fine with it...

you know the amazing thing about my Father is that He is no respecter of age. and i want to add on: natural skills and talents.

He doesn't respect that.

When God looked down from Heaven and saw the dried up jawbone of a donkey, He probably said to Himself: "Ah! now i can use this jawbone."

hey... its a dried up jawbone... how can one fight with that?

but God can. with God all things are possible. Samson came, took it, and killed 1000 with it.

amazing... my Father looked down from Heaven, looked at Singapore, and saw a beat-up, rusty, guitar that was falling apart. the high E string had problems tuning. the frets are worn out, there were no more markings. the wood was warped. blah blah blah... no self-respecting muscian will TOUCH IT!

even ernie... whom everyone says is very good at guitar... commented on it.

but hey... you know what I see?

I see my Father saying: "this guitar is falling apart. its good to be used by My Spirit now. I will cause my beloved Musician to come across this guitar."

my teacher has taken that guitar back for repair.

honestly... when i first had that guitar... i myself DISDAINED IT!
my daddy God caused me to receive that... but i never had the EYES to see it. but when my eyes were opened, my heart was touched.

yes even though i had to let it go, it brought to me a revelation.

i didnt share this with steve who said this...

but one day... when i was playing on it... i realised i've grown attached to it.
i love even that musty old smell.
and.... i thought la... I thought im my humble opinion, that the guitar sounds... GOOD. all of a sudden, it sounds good. (to me la... to me. dont know about others)

but i thought it was just me, my imagination or abit of pride or smth.



until one lesson... for some reason.. i didnt bring my electric guitar... i brought that acoustic... and my teacher heard me play abit on it... and he commented: wah the guitar still sounds good...


isnt it worldly....?

to place one's trust in the guitar itself?

does a $10,000 guitar or a $200 guitar sound different?

sure it does! im not disuputing that. but God is not a respector of the naturally gifted or talent.

grace grace~


out of the blue... a few days later, Steve told me the guitar sounds good.

and i was surprised actually.

i mean... woaah... a leader told me this nonetheless!

thats why i let the guitar go.

does that make sense to you?
haha am i speaking in oxymorons too?

i let the guitar go because it sounded good.

now, i believe with all my heart... it wasnt the guitar thats good. the guitar in the natural... was TERRIBLE!
it was kaput!
amongst the other musicians, i probably had the most laugheable one!

but as i started to trust God.... my Father made the music sound better.... and better and better... until even i heard it.

its not the guitar thats anointed, neither is it my flesh.. the anointing is on my Spirit... and God wanted me to see, and EXPERIENCE it first-hand.

that, "hey Son, its not about what you can do, or cannot do... or what you have, or do not have... but its My Spirit."

[Zechariah 4:6] says "not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit", says the Lord of Hosts.

that when the Spirit of God dwells in me, He moves mightily in me.
even the jawbone of a donkey can be used to kill 1,000...
how much more an ancient-falling-apart-guitar for His purpose?

so i let the guitar go...
the revelation that i caught is worth more than a branded $10,000 guitar or whatever.

my teacher lent me another guitar.
its newer... isnt battered..
in fact it looks good.
i showed it to yong jie during the dinner gathering after campus.

to me la... ok.. honestly.. i preferred the older one.
my new guitar sounds.... TERRIBLE! the tone is weak and hollow. probably the wood is not solid enough.

but hey... where my weakness is... there His grace is perfected..

(=

[2 Cor 12:9]
9 Jesus said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness."

therefore i rather boast of my weakness.... says the apostle Paul.

so would i... because it sounds terrible in the natural... when the anointing falls upon me again... i trust my Father... it'll sound wonderful to the listeners.


cg on friday...
and im finally playing solo...

im going to trust my Father for anointing...

---

mmm such shaloam.
there are trials of course... Jesus Himself said so [John 10]

but they are my bread.

i eat... with joy and rejoicing in my heart. knowing that the Word-made-Living is with me. He came to die, not to live, so that my daddy God can step out of the Holy of Holies, and be with me. that the Immanuel prophecy is fulfilled.

God is with me.
God is for me...
whom shall i fear?

--

oh Jesus... i could go on talking about You all day, all night.
haha.... its 11.30. and i havent even touched my guitar.

you know... honestly... i spend more time in the Word than... practising...
nowadays... i'm practising more la.
as the Spirit leads me...

you know when i was "baby Christian" so-called... i used to pray the Spirit command me to do something. i used to pray the Spirit would tell me specifically, etc.

but as i grew... i realised... thats nonsense!

the Spirit is not a commanding one, neither does He take over my body.
as pastor prince always say: not tangki... not bomoh or medium!

the Spirit prompts, not commands.
once i realsed that i repented and started to rest in Him instead.

theres a place... pastor said before. where you and the Holy Spirit don't even need to speak. its as if the Spirit touches your soul, and you know what God means, or is trying to tell you. one touch... and you... just KNOW... deep down in the belly of your heart.

im still learning to flow with God... but im starting to realise what He means.

what does walk by faith, and not by sight mean.
what does by His Spirit mean.
what does it mean to be led by the peace in my spirit.

i believe all these only happen because one seeks the Lord out.

why pastor prince can preach is because he has the revelation... amen?
but why he preach, but some people don't get it... is because of this:

its like Moses and the Children of Israel.

Moses knew His ways, the Israelites knew His acts.

so its the same with pastor.
Pastor Prince knows Jesus's ways, when he preaches... we know his acts.

oh.. Jesus healed this man... whats the revelation. whats the significance, blah blah blah.
oh Jesus loves us, yes He does...

but who do YOU say Jesus is?
not who does pastor prince say Jesus is?

the more you understand Jesus, the more you'll naturally walk in His ways.
the lesser you sin. im not saying you'll never do wrong. maybe one day, the church might come to such a glory... but i wonder....

i mean.. even looking at a woman with lust in your eye = commit adultry.
in our flesh dwells no good thing, the bible says.

so im not worried about sin.
how can the dead speak to me?
for surely, Jesus You did a perfect work. You condemned sin in the flesh.

why should i relinquish my thoughts to the ghost of a dead past?
or should i fellowship with dead?
should i commune with them?

most assuredly not!

no one gives money to the dead, and no one talks to the dead.
then no one gives any credence to sin, neither does one talk to sin.

Sin is something to be disregarded.

i just want to learn more.

seek first His Kingdom, His righteousness, and all these things will be added.
such a simple... powerful verse... but it takes the Holy Spirit to open it up to me.

where is His righteousness today?
where is Jesus?

in me... Christ in me, the HOPE OF ALL GLORY!
the hope of a master guitarist, master bassist, master harpist, and a master pianist.

yes... i do have these instruments in mind. but we'll see (=
look unto Jesus... the author and finisher of my faith!
the captain of my salvation!
the hope of all glory.

in me.

fantastic revelation i tell you!

wee..... im joyful (=
though the storms may rise, the thunders may roar against me.
though the winds may blow, and cause sand to sting my eyes.
though the waters may refuse to flow, and the sun refuse to shine.
though the clouds refuse to leave, and the flowers refuse to bloom.
though spring may stay its coming, and the winters stay its going.
yet i will praise my God, in whom I've made my refuge.
i will praise Him, for He is my eternal Father.

He who causes the birds in the air to sing,
feeds them with food.
He who causes the lilies in the valley to bloom for me,
clothes them with finery beyond Solomon.
He who sent His only begotten Son in the likeness of sinful flesh,
how will He not with Him freely give me all things?

surely... whatever shadows remain in my life... are a result of the Light yet to shine upon them. let the Word be confirmed in my heart, let it be as a shining light into the dark places of my life, and the morning star rise in my heart. as the dawnsun rises and shines unto the noonday sun, do does my path, the path of the just and the righteous shine ever brighter, ever clearer unto the day of perfection.

in Jesus's name i pray, amen.


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i love these kind of photos!








-11:46 pm

there's that slight sense of worry.
how can i not?

but theres something to think about.

"seek you first the Kingdom of God, and all these things the Gentiles seek will be added to you"

won't it be a bit strange... to seek Jesus, my Righteousness, and yet seek the same thing as the Gentiles?

then how can Jesus be my number 1?
my heart would be split between that which is of the world, and Him, who is not of this world

of course i'm worried about my future.
whether to go NUS, NTU, take Business Admin, or Mass Comm.

of course i'm worried about my starting pay when I graduate.
(Business students earn more: they get about 2.7-3.2k starting, while those in the media are blessed to start with 2k)

how can i chase money and Jesus at the same time?

for someone to have that great a faith, to disregard the love of worldly things... is not to say he doesn't need worldly things. but he realises that Jesus comes first: that if He seeks Jesus, and His Righteousness, seeking the Kingdom of God first... all these things are added will be added.

it's hard to explain... but think about the verse above.
if you could realise that everything you could ever desire, a good pay, a good job, a good career and family, is all found in Jesus, then you'll seek Him out first!

instead of chasing that paper degree, chase Jesus first. and somehow the degree will follow, the job offers will follow, the pay is good and will follow.

Money eyes me, not I eye money. I eye Jesus.

do you understand?

hmm when i talked to jolene, she also couldnt really get me. when i was going home with vann after one of the services. i was so oppressed, that after the service... i tried to talk to her while going home, but i think i came across as babbling. like Babel: Babylon (Confusion)

confused thoughts?

-10:19 pm

words just can't describe You.
just cannot.
i've come to the point where.... i can't blog about You.
You're just too beautiful to describe.

----

my mum is coming to church.
ever since i talked to her that one time at my grandma's birthday party, she's been attracted to the gospel of grace.

when i got my ipod, and i returned her the ipod nano. she wanted me to clear out my songs and my stuff.

i did that... but for some reason.... i didn't delete the sermons. i left ONLY the sermons and some of the p&w songs behind.

(= i know she listens to the sermons. im not sure about the p&w la. but the sermons... so i added two more to the nano.

haha... W.W.J.D = Watch What Jesus Do
just watch, He's working mightily in me.

-9:11 am

my goodness.
i woke up this morning feeling the presence of the Lord around me.

and i realise what it means... really means: Christ in me, and I in Christ Jesus.

hence... i deleted some of my previous post. i struck it out.
the devil has no hold on me.
he can oppress me, he can stricken me, he can try to make me feel condemned. but its A BIG FAT LIE.

the more i understand Jesus... the more i walk in His grace and favour. the faster i "bounce back". the more secure i become. the lesser and lesser the flesh acts against me.

trust in the PERSON of Jesus.


-12:08 am

its disheartening.
its tiring.
its oppressive.



daddy...
daddy...
daddy...
like a rock on my shoulders;
a chip in my shinbone.
aged griefs pressing on my heart.
like bound feet,
and a hole in my heart.

seek you to destroy what my God holds dear to Him?
my name is Well-Beloved;
no power or principality may have a claim on me.
you came against me, with a sword and a spear,
i come against you with the sword of the spirit,
a sword that can cut through bone and marrow.
i refuse to speak your lies, i refused to bow to your pressure.
i refuse to utter anything profane, my tongue is tamed by the grace of God.




my trust is not in pastor prince, coach han, any cgl, steve, jolene. not in any musician, anointed or not. my trust is not in pastor chin, not in my parents, not in my friends, secular or not. my trust is not in my instruments, nothing that I see, I trust.

my trust is not in my trust for Jesus.

my trust is Jesus.
because Jesus has NEVER EVER FAILED EVEN ONCE.
and that VICTORY HE OBTAINED... is for me, and now resides in me:
Christ in me, the hope of all glory.
I trust in Christ, i trust in the PERSON of WHO HE IS.
He never fails.


You will lead me out of this.

-12:48 am

clear clear.
make myself clear.

let's walk Jesus.

-11:29 pm

there's so much that i want to talk about....
but who shall hear me?
even when i tried to speak to my leader... there's not enough time, through no fault of hers, be assured of this.

but one thing.... that i just wish i could "loud-hailer" to the world:
I RESPECT, and HONOUR JOLENE, because she is the Lord's Anointed.
understand?
i can laugh, joke, tease, but i RESPECT, HONOUR, and OBEY her, as unto the Lord.
do i live unto her?
most assuredly not!
if I live, i live unto the Lord. and if i die, i die unto the Lord.
i'm accountable to no man, for no man made me.
but i'm accountable to my own master; whatsoever i do, i do as unto the Lord.

just as David would not lay a hand on Saul, as he calls it:

[1 Sam 24:6]
“The LORD forbid that I should do this thing to my master, the LORD’s anointed, to stretch out my hand against him, seeing he is the anointed of the LORD.”


and again to Abishai:


[1 Sam 26:9]
“Do not destroy him; for who can stretch out his hand against the LORD’s anointed, and be guiltless?”


for he himself said:

[1 Sam 26:23]
"for the LORD delivered you into my hand today, but I would not stretch out my hand against the LORD’s anointed."


now this i speak figuratively, for i am at no conflict with any leader.

I submit as unto the Lord.

--

Be that I may sin... but not unto Man... but unto the Lord.
but i thank the grace of my Lord Jesus Christ, that there is therefore now no condemnation for I am in Him, because God has made Him, who knew no sin, to become sin for me. His Love was manifested to me in this: that He sent His only begotten Son, to become the propitiation of my sin, while I was still a sinner.

scarcely a one will die for a righteous man, much less for a good man.
but no man would die for a sinner, neither would he let his child die for one.

whoever heard of such a thing?

but the God who made the Heavens and the Earth, has seen it fit to send His Son in the form of sinful flesh, in the likeness, but most assuredly not as (sin)!
He was conceived by the Holy Spirit, and not by Man.
no Man has a claim on Him... but He is descended from Man.
in this then we know: He is fully God, and fully Man.

so then He came from God, so am I.
for I am born again by the Spirit, no longer as I was.
when i was a child, i walked as a child.
when i held this position in my job, i ate as one in this position.
but now being a child of the Most High, shall i continue to walk as i did?

for my heart itself desires the things of Heaven that has already been delivered into my hands, but i want to see the manifestation of it. that You, and You alone be glorified. You are no liar, and Your Word is no lie. Your Word does not return to You void, how can You lie? by Your Word, the Heavens and the Earth were made.. that same power is in the book i hold. I'll be a fool not to trust and obey it.

--


are you then worried for my sake?

granted i am not perfected... but i assure you, maybe i may look excited, but then so be it. have i no emotions?

for it seems that the slightest thing has slighted people. i'm tired of people misintepreting my actions. if it were that serious... then i might have crumpled again... but nonetheless, i am not alone on this world. but if you have esteemed something and are fully convinced in your mind... then i'll flow with you. that we ahve no friction between us... and are able to with one mind, and one mouth praise the Lord.

--


argh... nevermind.
sometimes i feel so misunderstood.
i met up with some mcm people today.
miss hanging out with them (=
it just puzzles me.. why can i "click" with them... but not so smoothly with my "brothers and sisters in Christ"?

what did i do? or did not do?
i do not wish to waste the grace.

when i spoke to Jo just now... and i was telling her about the ambs thing... I AM FINE.

FINE.

F.
I.
N.
E.

personally, i've inquired of the Lord, heard Coach talk to me, and asked Jolene.... and this is what I received:
maybe there is an anointing placed on me to share. fine and well be it then.
seems they see something i don't see.
fair enough.
maybe i'm not subtle.. fair enough.
maybe i don't obey my leader... fair enough. but let me clarify... it was not my intention, and again no fault of hers. guys don't tend to get subtle hints. how was i to know i was to attend to someone? nonetheless... i agree with my leaders... although it was not my intention to not obey... but i have done this.

now this is what is personal to me:
if there is an anointing fine and well with me.

now listen:

being anointed, i can draw on the anointing.
"as the earth's gravity pulls rain unto the earth."

being able to draw on the anointing, i can fill up.
"as the rain falls and fills up the oceans"

being my hearts desire to be filled up AND OVERFLOW.
"as the oceans are filled up, and flood the dry lands"

so its this "overflowing anointing" that i seek.

--


for my pastor preaches from the overflow of his heart.
if he preaches from anointing... well and good, and fair enough. it gets the job done. but i respect such a man as he, who is convinced by the Lord, and thus preaches from an OVERFLOW.

be that in my music then.
be that when i share then.
be that if i am an ambassador.

but being convinced now... i told Jolene i don't wish to join ambs. if i joined... i know i might feel FORCED to talk to people.... and i don't want that. neither do i want to feel "caged".

but i will continue to talk to people... not to prove i can be an ambassador (if i really am), neither to prove a point to my leaders... but because I WANT TO.

i want to talk to people.
how can i not?

if the rains i've received from the Lord overflows the oceans i've bought before Him, how can it not overflow unto dry lands? and fill up the lands also?

thus then [Isaiah 58:11] may be fulfilled in me by the grace of the Lord:

11 "... You shall be like a watered garden,
And like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail. "

did not Solomon write a song of how the Beloved wooed the Shulamite?
thought it may be that the Shulamite considered herself unworthy... but the Beloved sought her out... with sweet words of exhortation, cleansed her with his Word, and won her heart in the end.
such is the love of Jesus.
He came ever so quietly one night, went back ever so quietly one day.

so i will not join ambs... but i will continue to talk to people... because I want to... and i overflow. may i never dry up! not that i pray for no trials or tribulations to happen.. rather.... i welcome them! that my God may be glorified, that i may learn to be led by the Spirit! and triumph over them... so that the scripture might be fulfilled: that I am more than a conqueror through Him who loves me.

--

secondly.... Jo has explained why she isn't so keen on letting me play bass and using the special amp i'm eyeing for cg. and i'll listen to her... I do. why should i not obey?

"believe in the Lord Your God and you shall be established (in righteousness). believe His prophets and you shall prosper" (2 Chron 20:20)

i've heard what she said... and i agree with her.

Can I walk with her... and not agree with her? (Amos 3:3)

nonethless... i've already bought the bass. and have convinced myself of buying the amp... but if it is not approved... then i will by no means do it.
not that it is right or wrong.... for she understands to a musician: it would be alright... but it would be no good for the cg.

and i understand her concern and am amazed at the care she has for her cg.
if she would not want her cg to be distracted by the amp.... then i would listen:
-- "she wants her cg to receive the best... and i want the cg to best feel God's Presence during p&w too."

she bothered to listen to me and i thank Jesus that i'm this favoured....

maybe i dont make sense all the time. maybe i can end up being longwinded (how can i not? i could have talked non stop sometimes!). but i'm stll glad she listened through.

one thing that i respect about her is that she'll listen to me... until i give up talking. because i just can't seem to say what i feel. so i'll end up dumbfounded, gesturing wildly with my hands... and looking at her and go... "err... you understand?"

so i am thankful i am in NPA, let me make it clear first.
i'm thankful to be here.
i'm thankful EVEN TO BE ALIVE! ALIVE WITH THE ABUNDANCE OF GOD'S LOVE!

isn't it amazing though... that the people who misunderstand me never read my blog?
and isn't it amazing i just shut my mouth?
sometimes maybe... just maybe i should rise up and say, "OOI... blah blah blah"

but for some reason... i just cant bring myself to open my mouth.
the big reason is: i just don't. i'm dumbfounded and unable to defend myself (SOMETIMES) maybe God wants to protect me from saying more silly things (0.o)

another reason is cause my mouth lazy.
another reason: fine... i dont care. the glory of God is my reward (rearguard)... unless its something serious then.. ill speak up.
lastly: why should i justify myself? isn't all Men accountable to the Lord? for this reason He came and died: that He maybe become the Lord of the LIVING AND the DEAD! not just of the Living... but the DEAD to. and i belong to the Living.

nonethless... i havnt' addressed what i received today.
like i say: i could keep talking.... could. but not all the time mind you.

so in conclusion.... im not going to join ambs.... and music min... not yet either. (obviously). but i will continue to play for cg.

i had planned to play cg solo, and she agrees.
i had planned to play bass... but she wasn't so keen. and i agree also.
i had planned on using a special kind of amp for cg, but she was worried people might get distracted. and i agree with her also.



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(= hey.... its not a surprise coach was talking to me about correction (once again!) before service and during service it was ALSO about correction. im joking about the once again ok? let me clarify. just joking. he talks about other stuff ALSO.

my point is.... praise Jesus... He wants me to learn more.

is it also a coincidence.. that at the end... pastor suddenly started aobut anointing? and some of his preaching.... answered my questions?

i havent adressed them yet...
but when i have a full reckoning... ill account it here.

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so no worries. go sleep.
blessed night~~~~


-11:23 pm

so what is self-effort?

how can i "cut off my flesh?" (i speak spiritually)

what does spirit, and not mind mean? (i'm exceedingly frustrated by my efforts to think not to think)

so what is overflow? (i wonder how can it be manifested? how can one tell?)

so can anointing be measured? (can one person be "more anointed" than another?)

if You don't.... how will I know?
do it... I choose.






"Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal."

*jingle jangle. smell of hot horses. smell of sweat*


-11:38 pm

yes, i choose.
let's go.

my heart's desire. not my mind.


[1 John 2:13-14]
13 I write to you, fathers,
Because you have known Him who is from the beginning.
I write to you, young men,
Because you have overcome the wicked one.
I write to you, little children,
Because you have known the Father.
14 I have written to you, fathers,
Because you have known Him who is from the beginning.
I have written to you, young men,
Because you are strong, and the word of God abides in you,
And you have overcome the wicked one.

let me know Him who is from the beginning.
let me know who He is, that I might grow mature spiritually.
let me know He who is the true God, who was sent by the Father, and who had glory with Him, before the world was.

-8:08 pm

heh.. today i'm home so early.
praise God.
i shall go running today.

some people have asked me.... where you work.
after they asked me that like last week.
haha....

then the next thing they ask is. when you ending?

then the next thing they ask is... you finish work so early today?
cause i always appear for thurs and/or friday bs.

yes by the grace of God i appear.

like easy hor? just leave work and come to worship...

what i didnt really tell (most of) them is that i work OT for two nights.... just so i can leave early to come to the House of God.

i mean.... even my supervisor said: wah you very kuai (obedient).

they prolly wont understand.... ...
but i dont do it cause im kuai.
i dont do it cause i have to.

i do it cause i WANT to.
i want to come to hear the Word of Faith, i want to have my feet washed by the washing of the Word, i want to sit at Jesus's feet and behold His beauty as He is revealed, i come because i'm established in righteousness, and i come because i believe His prophets (pastors).

there are times when i feel attacked... and i get thoughts like... work so hard for what? even your mcm friends also dont stay back so late anymore.

i dont care.... i'll press through the crowd, or as jolene says, press in (cause she says its harder to press in than press through --hmm sounds wrong), ill press through the difficulties.... just to touch the helm of his garment... and all the time.... im repeating in my heart: if i just see Jesus, if i just touch Jesus... ill be healed.

you know what... the bottomline is... im overjoyed at working OT just to come bs early. just so i can get tickets to sit in the audi.
i know some people will think.... the overflow rooms are good too.
i dont disagree.
they're good.
but audi got surround sound system. im kidding.

i mean its just me la...


nothing wrong with overflow k?
i first received the grace msg when i attended overflow.

i just want to sit right in front.
just like... why i want to come sit in front during campus.
why during campus p&w i want to be in front.
not to see and be seen... but im just drawn forward...

ill do anything just to come sit at Jesus's feet.

i mean... sometimes we dont TREASURE what we have.
Jesus is the greatest gift from God to Mankind.
and yet... some people seem to take the gift for granted.

i mean... nothing wrong with that... again let me clarify its just me.

but i know what that gift took. i know what kind of gift it is..
i KNOW THE ONE WHO GAVE ME THAT GIFT.
He KNEW ME before i was even formed.
how can i not be touched?

when i lay (literally lay) in sin once.... until His mighty arms of Love scooped me out of the miry clay, set my feet up high, wiped the tears off my cheeks, and lifted my face unto His countenance... and i saw mercy, grace, redemption: i saw Love and Forgiveness.

how can i not be moved?

Rahab... a harlot was moved by God to defend those who were sent.
now just think... just think a harlot.
to us... we cant imagine...
but just imagine... that night after night.. as she lay with men she never knew personally, never loved, just selling her body... for money... the bible calls it "mammon", and its unfaithful...
but if she once served mammon... how she served the Lord God of Israel after she heard of Him.
now just think.... if she, a prostitute... lay with men, night, after night, after night... and each time the men left.... a part of her soul is ripped away. for when a man and woman go into one another.... their souls are joined. thus they become one flesh.

how can it be....? that even a harlot understands mercy than all of us?
she was even mentioned in the Hall of Faith... [Heb 11]

how she must have cried night after night.
how hope must have died in her heart, how her heart must have grown cold, how her soul must have faded away.

but when she heard of God and how He loves and cares for the children of Israel, she said:

“I know that the LORD has given you the land, that the terror of you has fallen on us, and that all the inhabitants of the land are fainthearted because of you. For we have heard how the LORD dried up the water of the Red Sea for you when you came out of Egypt, and what you did to the two kings of the Amorites who were on the other side of the Jordan, Sihon and Og, whom you utterly destroyed. And as soon as we heard these things, our hearts melted; neither did there remain any more courage in anyone because of you, for the LORD your God, He is God in heaven above and on earth beneath. Now therefore, I beg you, swear to me by the LORD, since I have shown you kindness, that you also will show kindness to my father’s house, and give me a true token, and spare my father, my mother, my brothers, my sisters, and all that they have, and deliver our lives from death.”

her heart MELTED when she heard the goodness of God.
the bible says in Romans chapter 2, that the goodness of God leads Men to repentance.
the GOODNESS not the TERROR of God.

wherever Jesus went in the gospels, His mercy led Men to repentance.
He didn't go about preaching Hellfire and brimstone.
yes, the old testemant had that one time.... was it helpful?
just think about it.

how gracious God is (=


then you say: there! first sentence she said the TERROR!


no read properly... the TERROR of WHO?
the children of Israel, not the TERROR of God Almighty!

THINK!

its as if... a woman sees a cockroach running towards her and is scared of the cockroach, and you go to her and say: ooi, the cockroach is SMALLER than you, why are you afraid??????

i mean its not so much the cockroach that is fearful, but rather what the cockroach represents... the cockroach is gross, and i dont want it crawling up my leg, for e.g.

they were afraid of the children of Israel, because they knew who was behind them back them up.

"...God in heaven above and on earth beneath..." says Rahab.


you know Rahab means "proud" in hebrew...
the love that God showed to His people, melted her heart, that she ALONE, out of the whole city, sought out the Lord. [Heb 11:6, 31]
nobody else did.. cause all they saw was the TERROR.
how terrifying is the children of Israel... hmm?

Nations mightier than her have stood before her, and yet whenever the Hand of God was upon them, they prevailed.

but Rahab saw the goodness of the Lord, and her heart melted... her courage faded away. the "pride" in her heart melted.

you know your opinion of God.... affects the way you see the bible as.
i was telling my brother that.... if you see God as harsh, the bible seems harsh to you.

in the church.... we go about telling one another... you know God's Word is like love letters. love letter here love letter there....
so... do you feel God's Love reading it? (=


--

anyway... i just came home.. bumped into my bro in our room.. then he showed me a bottle of perfume he bought. and gave it to me.
i was like... whats this?

then he said he bought it from a salesman on the streets.

and i was like: what??!

then i look at the package... it read: "MK1, our own version of CK1."
on the back it clarified that Calvin Klein has no relation to them whatsoever.

and i was like: you know this is an imitation right?

and he replied: ya.

"so why did you buy it? how much did you buy it for?"

and he goes, "2 for $20"

and he goes on how he has only $19 left.

and i was thinking.... "my goodnessx.. then for what you buy it?"

"i dont know" he said....

i was thinking... at that moment.. honestly... that guy must have been using some kind of black magic or smth la. i mean: how can a young man like my brother get CHEATED???

if it were my grandma, i can understand... but?!?!!??!

hello?!?!?

but before i could shoot my mouth.... but i felt restrained by the Spirit. so i was like... ok... didnt say much.

but im thinking.... how could this happen? i mean.... the guy must be super persuasive or smth... i mean.... how could my brother get duped???

HE SELLS PERFUMES HIMSELF. BRANDED one... Tommy Hilfiger. or tommy something la. who cares about brands?

haiiz.....

then i heard myself saying: dont you know that....

then i paused... and went to sit on my bed.. and im like thinking to myself: there i go again... say something... and i dont know why i said that...

i wanted to say something... but i didnt want to say something condemned.. cause i could see he is kinda guilty about it.
the manner he spoke to me.... was kinda sheepish....

so i was like... "God help me... i dont know what im saying"


--

and i ended talking about Romans 8:1.

and right at that moment.,... he said: ya he felt guilty about buying it. felt bad.. blah blah blah...

so i told him nobody is condemning him. our father and mother might... but God doesn't. blah blah....

and im surprised.... God saves my big mouth.
ah well... im even surprised when he revealed his guilt. i think its something either neither my sister or parents caught.


--

later on... my sister came over... and she wanted to print something... so im like ok... fine...

then she printed... and it came out all wrong. like she didnt set the print properly... and about like 5 pieces of paper came out...

and i was thinking... why you WASTING PAPER?
i paid for the paper out of my own money la.

i mean... i get so little pocket money... and i have to pay for YOUR printer paper?


amazing you know... how people can waste someone else's hardwork.
like my job not tough enough.

so i was like... "no prob... let me do it...
ill show you how to do it."

and she gets all defensive...
i find that she';s very.... defensive la.. like everythinhg must fight back to justify herself.

i mean... come on! i reminded her im not condemning her... so she should relax. im HELPING her print!! for goodness sake... if Jesus appeared to her and said, "let me help you."

she'll arugue back i think... "no no Jesus, i just used Print instead of Windows Picture manager"

hahahahaha.... im actually kinda amused by them two... to me... its like watching how i used to be.

one thing im learning (still learning, mind you) is that... "dont fight back"

only those who are charged with something... fight back.
do you see the innocent fight back?

guilty condemnations cause a fight-fight-fight action to rise up inside us.

hey... you are secured in the Beloved.
fight what?
Jesus fought everything 2000 years ago.
sit back, kick off your shoes, and watch the show!

"...only with your eyes shall you see the reward of the wicked..."

fight whhhhhaaaaat??
chill out!


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no condemnation understand?
recently.... i was thinking about somethings... and i realise... i do condemn myself very easily too. im not perfect mind you.

its the self-pity syndrome la...
amazing.... little human beings wanting to pity and sayang themselves... when Jesus Himself took our iniquities in His body.

whats there to sayang?
or will you "reckon yourself dead to sin?"

important you know.
if you dont reckon it happened 2000 years ago...how can you see it?
its not that Jesus didnt do it... its whether you have faith to see it?

yeah.... i was listening to the sermon about the Spirit of Sonship in the Benjamin Generation. the one about the jebusites.

its the friday service... and its power-packed!
hah.... i think i went thurs la. friday was CG right?
cant rmb....
ah well....

tml thurs bs and friday bs..
actually... ive been thinking... now that its vid recording... prolly people would go more for thurs.



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last time... when pastor preached on both services... sometimes... actually most of the times.. the two services are different.... cause... its LIVE. and sometimes he might add on stuff..... so in essence... you could catch two different revelations listening in on both days.

that was one of my incentives to go for both bs.

but now its vid broadcast....
how to?
i mean... both are gonna sound exactly the same...

logically speaking this should be it.
once he spoke it, and its recorded... the friday crowd will get the same treatment.

until God showed me that its the crowd that draws out the water from the well.
its not so much Pastor as it is the crowd.

if Pastor has a Word... and a plan... he can go along the plan. but as the crowd needs it, the Spirit will arise and anoint Pastor to speak some things he didnt plan to.

its happened many times.

i mean... it happen just now when for no reason i started talking about no condemntation to my bro (i pray he catches it)

yup... even though... its video.. im gonna go for both... and draw draw draw.. who says i wont be blessed with the EXACT same msg?

are you not listening to his cds over and over again? hmmm?

its how much you want from God. and God is faithful to give His Beloveds much much more than the Beloveds can ever imagine.

so... im gonna go for both... we'll see la (=

God so loves me... that when thurs come and i bring Him an ocean to fill... He'll make sure Pastor says the right thing.. at the right time to bless me.. and just for good measure... save some for Friday too! so that both days ill get blessed, amen!



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no worries about this: coach told me to watch my emotions or smth. cause he said that emotions get in the way of dying to self. so he prayed i would find stability...

and God showed me that... without stable ground.. seeds dont grow... amen?
so yup... i agree with you coach!
Christ is my peace... Jehovah Shalom~


"shalom! rapha~!~"

hallelujah!

-11:20 pm

have you ever done something suddenly, without thinking... that surprised even you yourself? especially yourself?

its almost as if you didnt do it of your own volition.



i was feeling kinda moody cause of a few worries and praying in tongues did't seem to have any effect...
until i was gonna go bathe and was standing right in front of the mirror...

and looked at myself... and my goodness!
what happened to me?

i looked like i haven't slept for days.
my hair was a total floppy mess,
and my body looked like a drug addict.

there was once i was a healthy weight.
i was like... almost 70kg...
but then.. year 3 of poly life started and i got too busy to go to the gym or whatever.

now i look like a drug addict.
pale and well.... skinny.

my grandma took one look at me and screamed.
ok im exaggerating...
she didnt scream...
but she came over and tried to feel my cheekbones etc.. and said, "aiyo... never eat. never sleep... blah blah...."

)=

i used to look strong.
now i'm strong by faith hallelujah.

hah....

my point was this... i was looking in the mirror... when suddenly... i just lifted up my hand and pointed at my eyes.... and i heard myself saying: "Look at yourself. look at yourself. do you know who you are? you are the beloved Son of God. stop hiding behind your hair. *brushes aside my hair* and look at yourself... look at who you really are. you are the beloved Son of God. Jesus came to die for you. so what if you're worried about napfa, work, school, etc....?

you are anointed.
you are protected.
you are beloved.

you will have a double portion restored to you.
your strength will be restored, and double that.
your physique will be restored, and double that (i cant imagine double, but amen)
your anointing will be doubled."


and i was looking in my eyes all the time...
and it was the first time i truly saw myself in the mirror.
there's a difference between looking in the mirror, and seeing yourself.

and i understood what Paul meant when he said, "beholding as in a mirror, the glory of the Lord"

as in literally... beholding myself.

and i saw my eyes went from tired and defeated... to have the Fire of the Spirit suddenly flare up.

i meant... i was like... woah.

think tml morn i'm gonna try that again.

i mean... if the world does things like that.. how much more effective my Word of Power would be?

-9:11 am

i think... i finally understand what does grace mean now..


-1:15 am

----(selah)----









Jesus loves me with all His heart, His mind, and His soul.
i'm the beautiful star He saw fell unto earth.
i'm the fallenstar He rescued.
i'm that star He picked up from the miry clay,
dusted off the ashes of the heart,
gave life back, polished the star,
and put the star back where it belongs:
in the dark dark night, to be a shining light unto other stars.

i'm that favoured star that shines the brightest.
i'm that star that shines for Him and Him alone.
i'm that star that burns with the fire of His Passion,
i'm that star that will never never burn up and fade away.
i'm that star that will never fade to black.
i'm that star that has met the bright and Morning Star,
and now reflect His shining glory.

--

i'm that city of light set upon the hill.
i'm that beacon of hope shining in the world.
i'm the tower that houses Faith.
i'm the shield crafted with Love.
nothing in this world, or that to come, can cover my light:
the Passion of Christ has set me free.

--

i'm the salt of the world,
if i lose my Faith,
how can I season the world?

--


and i saw the Spirit arise and wrap His arms around me,
ushering me away gently.
and i heard the Spirit gently whisper to me:
"repeat what I say, yes go ahead, repeat what I say."
and i felt the Spirit bring to remembrance --
the Passion of the Christ:
"for whom did Christ die for...?"

"for you," sayeth the Spirit of God.


--

who am I that You forgive my past so easily?
who am I to You?

Your love is beyond my knowledge,
it is too wonderful for my mind to attain.

how is that You love my soul?

how precious I am --
You bottle my tears,
each tear causes Your heart to ache.

how lavish Your love --
You number the hairs of my head,
You who know where all things go.

how perfect Your Love --
my fears flee before me seven ways,
I searched but there is no darkness before You

how merciful You are --
You've never remembered my wrongs,
they would have crushed my soul otherwise.

how tender Your Love --
like a tender root that grows from the ground,
into my shade, and my protection.

how sweet Your Words --
Your wisdom and Your grace towards me,
honey floweth from Your lips: I drink and am refreshed.

how beautiful You are --
a spring of Life,
a well-watered garden,
a well of Salvation,
a fountain that flows with Living Waters,
I drink and shall never thirst again.

there is no place, no where I can flee from Your Presence.
You'll never let me go, never forsake me, never condemn me.
Men will always try to judge me...
but Your Holy Spirir never judges me.
I'm resting in Your embrace...
I'm safe and secure,
because I know I'll never ever be judged.
thank You Jesus... I love Your love.


-12:39 am

i kinda miss... my piercings...


-10:00 am

Psalm 23
1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.



--

Hillsongs - For this cause album

I SIMPLY LIVE FOR YOU
Key: C
Worship

SAY THE WORD
AND I WILL SING FOR YOU
OVER OCEANS DEEP I WILL FOLLOW
IF EACH STAR WAS A SONG
EVERY BREATH OF WIND PRAISE
IT WILL STILL FAIL BY FAR TO SAY
ALL MY HEART CONTAINS
I SIMPLY LIVE
I SIMPLY LIVE FOR YOU

AS THE GLORY OF YOUR PRESENCE NOW
FILLS THIS PLACE
IN WORSHIP WE WILL MEET YOU FACE TO FACE
THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
TO WHICH YOU CAN BE COMPARED
GLORY AND GLORY
PRAISE UPON PRAISE

YOU BIND THE BROKEN-HEARTED AND
SAVE ALL MY TEARS
BY YOUR WORD YOU SET THE CAPTIVES FREE
THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
THAT YOU CANNOT DO
I SIMPLY LIVE
I SIMPLY LIVE FOR YOU


--


just simply simply live for You...

-12:57 am

i reckon i'm anointed.
with the richest, heaviest, mightiest anointing...
(= music of faith, hope, love.
righteousness, peace, joy in the Holy Spirit (=
in Jesus's name! amen!!


-12:16 am

mm.... sooon~~~~~~

i really trust God to fulfill His visions for me....

but [1 Cor 13-8 (Amp)]:
8 Love never fails: never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end. As for prophecy, the gift of interpreting the divine will and purpose, it will be fulfilled and pass away; as for tongues, they will be destroyed and cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away it will lose its value and be superseded by truth.


His Love never ever goes away... and thats even more absolute than fulfilling visions.

but i'm so excited at what the Lord has done for me!
today in the sky garden... i was trying something with alicia and nick... maybe they dont realise the significance... but to me... it was something special.

cause i got alicia to try rhythm, nick to play bass, and i'll play the lead parts... but i was like speaking in faith... cause honestly... didnt really know what to do...

al i knew isthat God will help me... His Holy Spirit isn't in me for show...
but i knew that hey.... take small steps first..

so i just tried something simple....
just play the major scale at the first position... which is near the head of the guitar.
but its not reallly ideal for e.guits... cause as lead, play higher up the neck... but i was so happy just to be able to flow with the other two...
true its not as if I'm Jen or smth..
but it meant alot to me.. to take baby steps.

when i first spoke in tongues... it was also like baby tongues. not much vocab....
but the first time i actually broke out in tongues... was during a certain praise and worship session at the indoor stadium... its the one where they made it into a cd: You Alone I Praise...

yup its that particular one...
funny... i sang in tongues, before icould speak it properly.

because after that service... i could speak in tongues.
before that... it was a major effort... cause of my flesh.
but anyway..

weee!


argh.. just cant describe my joy at taking the first step.
ever since the first time i played for cg... and the revelation of taking the first step... be bold! take the first step!

you think david would have killed goliath if he never took the first step?


its just the exhilirating feeling you get... when you take the first step out in faith... and you get rewarded for your faith for dillgently seeking God [Heb 11]

and i know it won't be long before God does even more mighty things!

stability Father... stability for the Beloved (=


-10:54 am

i used to think that Jesus defeated the devil in the wilderness cause of the Holy Spirit.

but it was more than that.

lets see in the gospels of Matthew and Luke and Mark:

[Matt 3, Luke 3, Mark 1]

Jesus was baptised in the water,
then

[Matt 3:16]
"behold, the heavens were opened to Him, and He saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and alighting upon Him"

its the same for Luke and Mark.

so all three gospels are accounted for that the Holy Spirit descended upon Jesus.

therefore Jesus was ANOINTED at the river Jordan.

after that,

[Luke 3:22]
"22 And the Holy Spirit descended in bodily form like a dove upon Him, and a voice came from heaven which said, “You are My beloved Son; in You I am well pleased."

and

[Mark 1:11]
11 Then a voice came from heaven, "You are My beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased."

and

[Matt 3:17]
17 And suddenly a voice came from heaven, saying, "This is My beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased."

so Jesus personally heard, YOU are my beloved Son,
while those around Him, heard THIS is

besides the anointing of the Holy Spirit, Jesus was affirmed that the Father loves Him, accepts Him, and is well-pleased.

in all three gospels, the word BELOVED, and WELL-PLEASED are consistent.

only then, only after Jesus has been affirmed of the Father's Love then, the Holy Spirit led Him into the wilderness.

I used to think that He was anointed with the Spirit and then He went into the wilderness.

actually... I believe that it was the Spirit that led Him in, and it was the knowledge of the Father's Love that led Jesus out.

lets take a look:

in [Matt 4 and Luke 4]

the devil tried to tempt Jesus by dropping the word "beloved".
Pastor has shared this before, and it convinced me that the devil always tries to make us forget that we are the Beloveds.

as the serpent, the devil tried to lie to us and make us doubt God.
as the form of the roaring lion, the devil tries to scare us.

anyway....

in [Matt 4 and Luke 4]

the 3 temptations are ordered differently,
but one thing was consistent, the VERY VERY FIRST TEMPTATION is very important that the Holy Spirit made sure that there is no inconsistency:

[Matt 4:3-4]
3 Now when the tempter came to Him, he said, "If You are the Son of God, command that these stones become bread."
4 But He answered and said, "It is written, ‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.’"

Pastor once shared that Jesus said Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God, and what just proceeded?

daddy God just told Jesus that He is the BELOVED Son of God, not the Son of God... but the BELOVED.

why should I have to prove anything to the devil?

if the devil comes before me and said, "IF you are the musician of God, then do this do that"

ill just laugh and say: I'm already accepted in the Beloved, I've nothing to prove to you.

the prob is that when the devil condemns us, we feel as if we have to prove something.

as Pastor once shared, God has no Law against turning stones to bread, the only prob is that if Jesus turned the stones to bread, He's saying He is not the Son of God. Means He has to do something, must PROVE something that He is the Son of God.

but we know and are fully convinced in our minds and hearts, that we are the BELOVED Sons and Daughters of God, and are under no condemnation for we are in Christ Jesus; we are accepted in the Beloved.

in fact... two of the three temptations had to do with Jesus not being the Beloved Son of God.

it was knowing that Jesus is the BELOVED Son of God that tided Him over the temptations.

yes i know that about the Holy Spirit, yes the Helper... but I believe what [Rom 5:5] says:

"...the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us."

the Spirit that Jesus received brought to His remembrance the love of God that has been poured into His heart.

I believe that whenever the devil tries to attack us, the Spirit arises and reminds us we're God's Beloved. We're Beloved.... daddy God loves us, and has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit that was GIVEN to us. GIVEN, not earned by us.

I love the love that Jesus has for me. I love because God first loved me.

ok let me close with [Luke 4:13-15]

13 "Now when the devil had ended every temptation, he departed from Him until an opportune time.
14 Then Jesus returned in the power of the Spirit to Galilee, and news of Him went out through all the surrounding region.
15 And He taught in their synagogues, being glorified by all."

when the devil had ended how many temptations?

EVERY.

I believe that Jesus conquered EVERY SINGLE TEMPTATION the devil has against us.
thats why the bible says in [John 16:33]:

"In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."

Jesus overcame the ruler of the world: Satan himself so that [Rom 8:35-39] might be made of effect:

35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
36 As it is written:


“ For Your sake we are killed all day long;
We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.”

37 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.
38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come,
39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

if there was nothing to conquer, we wouldn't be conquerors.
but we are MORE than conquerors... Jesus Himself overcame the world.

whensoever i walk through the wilderness, I walk as one who has won. because I am MORE than a conqueror through Him who loved me; and has overcome the world.

and when we walk out of the wilderness we walk out with POWER!

[Luke 4:14]

14 "Then Jesus returned in the power of the Spirit to Galilee, "

i used to wonder what power it was?

in 15 it says:

15 And He taught in their synagogues, being glorified by all.

Jesus started teaching... and we know what He teaches.
the grace and love of our God... for He came to reveal God's name: the name by which we know Him as... not Father... but even better: "Abba, Father"

Daddy God.

there is power in knowing you are God's Beloved Son/Daughter.

40 days Moses was up on the Mount Sinai with God, receiving God's Law.
now logically speaking... if you read the 10 commandments and the Laws after that, would it take 40 DAYS??

Moses isn't stupid. its not like he is retarded and God needs 40 days to explain 10 Commandments to him.

as Pastor has shared, Moses was being taught about God's Love, and His Son: Jesus Christ who will come one day into the world.

because in all of God's Laws... it actually speaks of Jesus.
e.g. the tabernacles, etc etc.

Pastor has shared these before... and it convinced me about it.

40 days Moses listened to God, enthralled by how God spoke of His Love, of Jesus, His Beloved Son. I mean... 40 DAYS for 10 Commandemnts??? and its not as if Moses was chipping at the stone tablets, it was God Himself who wrote the Laws... what did Moses do?

Except hear about Jesus...

it took God 40 days to talk about Jesus and His Love.
it took the devil 40 days to try to tempt Jesus out of His Love.

so that EVERY TEMPTATION the devil can ever have.... has already been spent on Jesus.
only Jesus could have resisted all of the Devil's temptations. and Jesus overcame them ALL.

Beloved... You are accepted in the Beloved [Eph 1:6]

what more can you ask for in the world?

hahaha...

-8:54 am

grace is grace does.

[Rom 4:7-8]
7 " Blessed are those whose lawless deeds are forgiven,
And whose sins are covered;
8 Blessed is the man to whom the LORD shall not impute sin."

-11:27 pm

i refuese, i absolutely refuse to say what you tempt me to.
i refuse to take any thought, SAYING what you tempt me to.
i refuse these condemning thoughts in Jesus name, i've reckoned myself dead to such sin. how can a dead man respond?


-11:13 pm

Father You're never let me go.
You're never give up on me.... Your Grace tells me so.

that when You said You're never ever leave me, it means You'll never let me go.
that when You said You're never forsake me, it means You'll never give up on me.

i'm not perfect.
i can't sing so well.
i can't play guitar or bass so well.
i can't preach so well.

but i know You love me. i know when You said You sent Your only begotten Son for me, because I am Your world, because You so dearly loved, and greatly prized me, thats why He came.

i know what it meant to You, when You said it pleased You to bruise Your Son whom You loved so dearly. i know what it meant to You, to look down from Heaven, and see Your Son, stripped and scourged, until His flesh hung on strips, and He could count His own bones. i know what it meant to You, when they spat on Him, and struck Him down, and scarred His visage beyond that of the sons of men. i know what it meant to You, when they led Him away, crushed Him with the Crown of Thorns. i know what it meant to You, to see Your Son lifted high, naked to Your Holy Fire.


i know how much You love Jesus, thats how much You love me.


for all my flaws... You love me.

-9:16 pm

i miss HM6ix!

ok thats psychotic.



in [Mark 4]
Jesus likened the Kingdom of God to scattering seed on the ground,
after He explained that the seed refers to the Word of God.

in [Jeremiah 15:16]
16 Your words were found, and I ate them,
And Your word was to me the joy and rejoicing of my heart; ...

i was telling Ryan that a revelation would bring him joy and rejoicing, so he shouldn't be worried that it might be "wrong" or that its from the devil or smth. because the devil always tries to make us fear, make us doubt, but we know that we don't have a Spirit of Fear to bondage, rather a Spirit of Adoption, by which we cry out Abba Father.

yesterday i noticed that the Word only mentioned "joy and rejoicing"... is that all?

[Rom 14:17]
17 ...for the kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.

then I was reminded by the Spirit that things of the Spirit are righteousness, peace, and joy.

then where did righteousness and peace go?

this shows the power of God's Word... that it jumps you straight to the end of the finishing line. Notice that Righteousness comes first, then Peace, then Joy. but His Word gives you joy straight away!

you know why?

because truly truly, a Word from the Spirit always gives you a sense of your Righteousness before God, always gives you Peace, and jumps you straight to the end: the Joy and Rejoicing of your heart.

if someone tries to preach, and it doesn't bring to you a sense of your righteousness, or brings peace to your mind, or even joy and rejoicing in your heart... be careful.

when the Beloved talk about his music anointings... he speaking by faith.
how many know that....
but the Beloved trusts in the power of his Daddy God!
hah.... He'll fulfill the visions and dreams. "not I, but the Spirit within"


-1:16 am

today cg power!

i think jo received that b'day gift of hers... the don't-know-called-what book la.
but there's greek and hebrew in it, and i think she must have spent lots of time with the Living Word.

anyway...

i was telling her to pray for us who are graduating.
but i thought it would be like... after the cg just a prayer session kinda thing.
but she did more than that. we prayed during p&w, and she laid her hands on us.


"to Him who does things exceedingly, abundantly, above all I ask or even think"

hah!

and woo! God has a Word for me.
hmm.. when jo lays hands on people and speaks a Word, its very sharp. very true. very accurate, and i say this to the glory of God.
its awesome to hear what God wants to say.

and this is what she spoke: Such an understanding of our Father! (exclaimation mark!)

ok la maybe not really exclaimation mark.... but its something to that effect.

and i was like saying to God: which Son doesn't want to know his Father more?

and i saw: God seated on His throne, laughing. and His laughter echoed through the mountains and their valleys, until it reached me on Earth, the Son smiling upon hearing His laugh.

He is the God of Issac (heb: laughter) hallelujah!

i was sharing with the cg about 1 Sam 17, from another perspective, and later Ryan came up to me, and said: he could see the change in me, etc etc. how he can see how God has changed me, etc.

THEN, later on as we were walking out: i was sharing with Sharon a few things, when Sharon spoke the same words: how she can see how different i was from when she first saw me in campus. when i still had my piercings on.

and the Holy Spirit brought to my remembrance smth Vann had said some time back: how if something is spokne three times, its like a confirmation. cause Peter denied Jesus 3 times, but Jesus restored Peter 3 times by affirming Peter of Peter's love for Him. (and yet Peter can lose his temper -_- )

so i told Sharon, if later another person came up to me, and said the same words, then i'll know God is confirming it.

AND LO AND BEHOLD, CHARIS said the SAME thing to me. in fact it was Charis and Denise, but because we three were speaking together, they two of them counted as one, for it was borne out of one conversation. anyway... Charis said the same thing...

in fact it was so fantasic that she didnt know how to phrase. but she said to this effect: that she saw there is a difference around me. something like a lifted countenance.



----



and i only realised this when i'm sitting here typing this out RIGHT NOW. cause i kinda forgot about Charis speaking on the way home, until i remembered she was the THIRD to speak the words.

and i'm like hallelujuah.

the last CG Amy spoke over me saying: how God knows I seek Him.
the next CG Jo spoke over me saying: such an understanding of our Father.

wow.... and later on, the three of them confirmed the Word.

haha...

Ryan means: King(ly) in Irish
Sharon means: Plain in Hebrew -- as in a fertile land (Isa 65:10)

" 10 Sharon shall be a fold of flocks,
And the Valley of Achor a place for herds to lie down,
For My people who have sought Me. "

Sharon means plain -- which means fertile land.
and fold of flocks here refer figuratively to sheep also.
We, the sheep of the Shepherd, shall be Sharon: fertile land.
We are fertile, We are blessed, we are productive, we aren't cursed or barren!
and such is the power of the Shepherd that the Valley of Achor is a place for us to lie down in.

Achor means -- Trouble in hebrew.
Yeah, though we walk through the Valley of Trouble, Jesus shall find a place for us to lie down in, because WE have sought the Lord.

and finally Charis means: grace!

hahahaha... the King has said I'm a fertile land, I shall rest even during Trouble, because I have sought the Lord my God: who is Charis, who is Grace.

weee!!

Jesus loves me!

i was speaking to Ryan about Jer 15:16.
May it be like the prophetic word that shines light into the dark place, and let dawn arise, and the morning star arise in his heart, in Jesus's name. [2 Peter 1:19]

[Isa 65:3-4]
3 A people who provoke Me to anger continually to My face;...
4 ...Who sit among the graves,
And spend the night in the tombs;

haha kabbalah, or howsoever its spelt!


anyway where was i?

i was telling ryan about it,
than on the way home, God showed me something deeper into the verse.
wee!
i go sleep first, share next post.

Blessed night~~~

-12:56 am

Jesus died for His friends.

so that I'll never be without a Friend ever ever again.

one of the revelations i caught from the service today was how selfish, and how self-centred the Law of God is.

hah... sounds like blasphemy huh?
let me clarify...

first off, i'm not talking about grace and works.
that much we are established in.

i'm looking at it from a perspective of Love.

i've been studying something for some time.... and another piece of the puzzle fell into my lap today.

what is wrong with the Law from a perspective of Love?



[Matt 12:30]
30 "And you shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength."


sounds good huh?

what powerful words of Love, you might think.

but lets look closely...


with the commandments, its always us, us, us.
its so one-sided.

how can anyone love so one-sided?

the very idea of loving God with His Law is absurd because, its one-sided.

where is God Himself in the Law?

in a way, if you read the 10 Commandments, it doesn't mention God loving back.
There's no response from God.

there is no commandment that says, You shall love the Lord your God and let Him love you.

no.... its such a selfish and one-sided Love.

its as if a man and a woman is dating.
but the guy keeps talking to the girl about himself: how he loves the girl, what he did for the girl, why the girl should love the guy back, how th guy shall love the girl, what the guy shall do for the girl.
and all this while, the girl has no say.

thats Law.

how one-sided this relationship is.
do you want to be dating such a guy/girl?

the Law doesn't even involve God in the sense of engaging Him.
the Law is not of faith, the bible says, because there is nothing in it that is about faith.

Nothing in the Law is fulfilled by faith.

if by self-effort we produce something, thats not of faith.
if God Himself created (framed) the world by faith, then should we not ought to follow and understand why should it be faith?

there is a righteousness imputed to us,
not by the works of the law, which is not of faith,
but to be justified apart from works, of the law:
the same righteousness imputed to Abraham, because he was of faith.

in other words, we are righteous by faith, and not by law.... for the very idea of becoming righteous by keeping the law, isn't flawed, rather that it requires NO faith.

and we know without faith, we cannot please God.
therefore, if you think about it,
keeping the Law does NOT please God at all.

so how then shall we please God?
by our faith, the bible says.

so let's pause here and think about the very very basic thing that we say we have a faith in.

Have you ever seen God?

No right?

Have you ever seen Jesus?

No right?

Have you ever seen Jesus die for you?

No right?

Have you seen God's Law?

Yes, for its written in the scripture.

Ok good, so you've NEVER seen God, NEVER seen Jesus, NEVER seen Jesus die for you, and YET you say that Jesus died for you, and you say that He came from God.

so then will you choose to be justified by the Law, which you can see, have seen?
or will you choose to be justified apart from Law, that is to be justified by faith?

IN THIS THEN IS FAITH: that we have not seen, but are blessed with believing what we have not seen. the very evidence of things not seen... for no one has ever seen God, neither has anyone alive today seen Jesus died, but we have heard of the good news, and having heard of it, believed it and have thus spoken, where upon your FAITH, you are saved.

It is the very faith you demonstrated when you proclaimed the Lord's death, burial and resurrection, for you have not seen, but have yet believed.

so what then?
shall we say that by faith, our sins are removed by the Christ,
but now we return to the Law: which we have seen, which we can see, but which is not of faith, for having seen it, how can it be of faith?

for by faith God created the world, having not seen the world formed as yet, but spoke the world into creation.
for by faith Abraham believed God, and it was accounted to him for righteousness.

how can then we please God with the Law?
when there is no faith involved?

rather have the faith of God,
when He said, "your lawless deeds and iniquities, i shall remember no more"
have the faith to believe it, for you have not seen it, but you are blessed if you believe and speak it.

how then did the apostles by faith were righteous apart from works?
for they have seen the Lord, and have testified of His death.
this then is the faith we should have: we do not work but believe on Him who justifies the ungodly (Rom 4:5)
so that our faith is accounted for righteousness, and being justified by faith, have access through it into the grace we stand (Rom 5:1-2).

-12:10 pm

sometimes i despair at the mountain before me.





---(selah)---






"the Lord is the power of my sword arm, the shield of my side.
He is the song of praise on my lips, and the wonder of my mind.

I've walked the world;
the length and the breadth,
but nary could I comprehend the depth,
of Your amazing love for me.

I searched the world;
to find there's none like You.
How precious Your thoughts are of me,
in multitude as the sand on the shore.

I'll lift up holy hands unto thee,
my Rock and my Redeemer,
in whom alone I trust,
and none other.
It is surely better to place your trust in the Lord,
for He cannot be moved.
He has spoken His Name -- Abba, the Name that I've known Him as;
He will not relent; His grace never dies.

You are my Helper,
my shield of truth, my buckler of faith.
For when I was in despair,
You delivered me into a broad place.
Set my feet above the flood,
crowned me with glory and honour.
Surrounded me with Salvation,
satisfied my mouth with good things.
Thus forth, my gate shall be Praise,
the heart -- Worship.

I'll seek You with all my heart,
I'll lift my voice to the Heavens.
Let my praise ascend to the Heavens!
My Praise endures forever,
yea, all things of this world pass away,
but He has chosen to keep for His heart -- the praises of my lips."





---(selah)---
the Word of the Day:

[Phil 2:14-16 (AMP)]
14 Do all things without grumbling and faultfinding and complaining against God and questioning and doubting among yourselves,

and I was just thinking of it.
woah~
i've no qualms,
i'll wait.

-10:27 pm

well that was embarrassing.
seriously... seriously embarrassing.
isn't this supposed to be new beginnings??
argh.... sometimes i wonder what am i doing?

The Beloved is kinda confused.
and disappointed...
but he knows the same God who made the Heavens and the Earth,
who sculpted the Sun and the Moon,
who alone has sole possession of the cattle on a 1,000 hills,
who lovingly and respectfully made the Beloved,
who breathed life into the Beloved,
is the same God who is his and his alone to Be-Loved and Love back.

argh... Vox DA5 shipment in March,
unless I buy 2ndhand online, but no sellers.

the good news is my IAP is ending in 2 weeks time.
the bad news is, so there goes my supply of $$$.
i only have ONE paycheck left.
and the amp costs 216.
so im like going... "JESUS!! HELP!"

ah well....
its kinda embarrassing to say maybe i shouldn't have.
but then again.... who knows?
can it not bless others too?
hmm....?
and me first and foremost?

and my work is really stressful?
haha... the work seriously piled up towards the end.
ah well.. cheap labour while it lasts!

and my NAPFA!
i dont want to go NS earlier than i have to!

and i stll dont have my student card back.
because i lost the stupid school mic.
actually its not my fault i lost it....
but the sin was transferred to me, hahahaha no im just kidding.
i cant graduate without my card!
yeah cant enter heaven unless my sin debt is cleared!
hahaha oh man... im talking nonsense.

you know what....?
i've NEVER been so intoxicated before.
honestly....
there was one time in my life... i got so drunk,
i was really really really so bummed.
like laughing and joking and talking nonsense all day long.
seriously!
hahahahaa..

i'm not drunk with wine.

im intoxicated with the Spirit.
be [greek: be being] filled with the Spirit, speaking in psalms, spiritual songs, and something... haha... oh go find the verse yourselves.

wee!




---







who shall prevent the Lord's Beloved?
shall worries pressing on me?
I shall not die but shall surely live,
to bless the name of my Lord.

Here I sit, watching the world scurry by.
Heads bowed low, hearts heavy,
shoulders burdened!

Come away, come away children!
Come to hear the Angel's song!

Let there be joy and rejoicing in your heart!
Put a smile on your face,
let laughter be the call of your Life.
Lift your eyes, lift your hearts,
lift your soul, lift your voice!
Praise the Lord while you yet live!
Praise the Lord forevermore!
Make straight the knees that bend,
let not the weight of the world crush your soul,
let Grace edify your being!

I could sing of Your love forever,
I could worship at Your throne forever!
I could listen to Your sweet whispers,
like honey that drips.
Purest of the Pure,
more Precious than Choice words.
my lips are for the Lord, and the Lord's alone --
Your words are to me: the joy and rejoicing of my heart.

and each breath of Life You breathe upon me:
the soft caress of a Lover and His bride.
Your love so true,
straighter than the arrow of the Archer of the Sky.
Let the stars light our path,
as we stand above the Earth and gaze upon the Heavens --
I'm in adoration at Your side.

We'll drink of our love --
new wine mixed with milk and honey.
We'll sit under the colourless sky --
and paint it with our love.
We'll beauty up the world --
stop stop stop to behold Your marvel!
We'll count the stars --
and add to them the glory of our Love.
We'll sit under the shade of Your Wings --
in secret let our Love be forged.

Let me lift my Voice,
and let the wind carry them to the Heavens.
Higher than eagles soar,
higher than angels fly,
to the ears of the Most High.
Let the Most High hear His Beloved --
waiting for Him.
Let the Almighty hear His Child --
the adoration of a longing heart.

My Beloved and I, alone.

hahahaa... oh man... im enjoying this.
just now i was downstairs to collect something.
and i just bathed and am wearing comfortable home clothes.
hair messed up, limp from the wash.
the wind was cool, but not chilling to my bones.
there was a tingle of mystery in the air.
mmmmm....
and im like thinking: Jesus..... its so comfortable to be as I am. Without my hair done up, or wearing fanciful clothes, without having to be something or someone. just I am, because You love me as I am.

mmmmm........ so soothing the Wind.
hahahaaha... just kept singing in tongues.
Its so beautiful to hear the Spirit [Greek: jointly] singing with me.

i just read this daily devotion:

(excerpt from "See yourself in Christ")



I remember going through a terrible time of depression when I was 18 years old. Believing that I was demon-possessed, I sought out a great man of God to have him cast the devil out of me. But when this man of God laid hands on me, he began to prophesy over me. He said, “Joe, I see you preaching to thousands, and used by God to impact thousands of lives. Joe, you are called by God and the devil is attempting to stop you.” ....

....And God wants us to see the way He sees. We are bound by time and that can limit our vision. Right now, you may see yourself going through a trial in your marriage, work, finances or health. But God sees a blessed marriage, a great success at work, supernatural increase in wealth and a healed body because He tells you that you are blessed with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ.

You see, God sees you in Christ. So when you see yourself in Christ, who is outside time, you step into the timeless zone. And in that timeless zone in Christ, whatever needs and trials of yours are already removed, repaired, restored or resurrected! In that timeless zone in Christ, you are blessed with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places!


---

this timelessness is the reason Truth is forever.
hahaha... His truth never ever goes wrong, becomes outdated, history or passes away.
Glory can pass away, but His Truth remains.



(= one day... i'm going to have my own car, and my own office.
i'm going to have a beautiful home, and beautiful guitars to play on.
Yes play, because it causes the Lord joy to see me just playing, like a Father sees His child playing a toy.


have you ever seen the loving gleam in a Father's eyes as He beholds His child?
have you ever heard the pride in His Voice as He declares of the apple of His eye: This is my Beloved Son in whom I'm well-pleased with?
have you ever felt the loving embrace of a Father holding His child when the babe is afraid?

(= haha... i haven't.
but I know the Father, and the Father knows me, because I know the Son who was sent to me.
now.... haven't I seen the gleam of Love in His eyes when His countenance is lifted to me?
haven't I heard the pride in His Voice as He declares to the Heavens and the Earth: This is my Beloved Son in whom I'm well-pleased with?
haven't I felt the loving embrace of my Father as He holds me to His bosom when I cry?


have you....?
(=





*with a soft tinkling laughter the Beloved leaves with his arm locked around the Father's*

-8:30 pm

dressing up for Campus Superstar!



justin and his look.
i guess he hasd his own version of the "blue steel" look.wahhaah..



nick



elvis. not.




the Well-Beloved.

[DARE]
alyn~aforannoying
glen-nys
Shavonne
---
[CAMPUS]
Huiyi~
'Vann the Psalmist
Amy the rich girl
Pearlynn~
----
dream guitar
Seal of the Spirit
---
fiona
fang
isabel
julian
karthi
lynn
nurul
penny
pearl
prema
sylvia
say wee
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