Sunday, October 21, 2007
-12:06 am
never never to walk alone again.--
Arrow! I saw something else while Pastor Benjamin as preaching. sometimes it happens... during a service... the Pastor is preaching something and when I look at the Scriptures... something new, but related pops up! the Holy Spirit opens up the Scripture being preached in a way that speaks to me.
[Daniel 1:3-4]
3 Then the king instructed Ashpenaz, the master of his eunuchs, to bring some of the children of Israel and some of the king’s descendants and some of the nobles,
4 young men in whom there was no blemish, but good-looking, gifted in all wisdom, possessing knowledge and quick to understand, who had ability to serve in the king’s palace...we are all descendants of the King, amen? thats what Pastor Benjamin was preaching. and when he was speaking about us being gifted in all wisdom... the part on
who had ability to serve in the king's palace jumped out at me.
I was so excited, because I saw how we all have ability to serve in the king's palace. We, Arrow Ministry is raised for a reason. More! We were born for a purpose!
MORE!
[2 Tim 1:9]
9 ...who has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began...we have a holy calling... and we've the ability to fulfil it. the Lord put it in us, not according to our works, but given to us in Christ Jesus before time began.
if it is given to us in Christ Jesus, then the only way to receive that calling, is not by our works, but in Christ Jesus, amen?
then as Pastor went on to Daniel 1:5
5 ....and three years of training for them, so that at the end of that time they might serve before the king.Even those who have the ability to serve need training.
its not enough to be gifted, that gifting needs anointing too.
I want to serve. I remember a few posts before i was just pouring out my heart on my desire to serve. and then i see now that yes, i have the ability to serve, and yes... i do need training.
maybe I get impatient waiting for something to happen.
but Jesus took 30 years to prepare for 3 years of ministry.
David was 30 years when he began to reign as king.
Joseph was 30 years when he rose to power.
in the census of the Levites, whether divided between Gershon, Kohath, and Merari, 30 year old men and above were numbered as the ones who entered service to do the work of the tabernacle of meeting.
thats interesting. they didn't enter the tabernacle to do service, they entered service to do the work of the tabernacle.
ok back to what i received from the service.
Daniel refused to defile, or in heb. redeem/free himself, by eating the king's food because they were offered as sacrifices unto idols.
its funny how Man gives food as sacrifices unto useless idols to get blessings,
when Daddy God Himself gave a Sacrifice as food to us for our blessings.
truly the ways of God are higher than the ways of Man.
in the end,
Dan 1:17 ....God gave them knowledge and skill in all literature and wisdom; and Daniel had understanding in all visions and dreams.isn't it great? Daddy God gave them, not rewarded them.
and notice how Daniel got an extra portion of blessing: he obtained understanding in all visions and dreams.
all because he purposed in his heart to do something for God.
for what he believed in. for what he stood for.
and as if thats not enough... all that Daniel did was 10times better than ALL the magicians, AND ALL the astrologers in ALL his realm. how absolute Daniel's wisdom must have been!
I'm gonna be 10times better than natural Man.
10times the abiblity, 10 times the wisdom.
10 times the training, 10times the skill and knowledge.
10 times the anointing, 10 times the understanding.
yes and amen, yes yes yes and amen! (=
Friday, October 19, 2007
-11:06 pm
every week's training gets faster and faster!
argh... IPPT test next week!
'course i'm worried... but whenever i do... i'll always tell Daddy God... "there's grace tomorrow for tomorrow. let me eat of tomorrow's grace tomorrow. there's no grace for tomorrow today."
in a way.. its what the world calls "living in the present".
i don't know about presents, i only know thye greatest present i received is a person who died for me on the cross.
tiredddddddddddd............ learning to live each day as it is.
no grace for tomorrow today.
tomorrow's mana will rain afresh again...no worries Jesus.
i want to learn to let go.
yes Lord.. even more so those things that matter to my heart.
Unless You hold the matters of my heart... I stay awake in vain.
You give Your Beloved Sleep. its only polite i take up the offer ;p
cheers Jesus.
much much more.
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isn't this beautiful?
suteki da ne?
[Psalms 45: 13-15] 13 The royal daughter is all glorious within the palace;
Her clothing is woven with gold.
14 She shall be brought to the King in robes of many colors;
The virgins, her companions who follow her, shall be brought to You.
15 With gladness and rejoicing they shall be brought;
They shall enter the King’s palace. Its a love song between the Messiah and His Bride.
and i think its so lovely.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
-10:29 am
[...post taken from SISPEC:7, SUN: 300907, 2153...]... I lost my camp pass and it set me in a such a lousy mood throughout the weekend. I wondered why bad things keep happening to me...
Then on Sunday I was @ Rock bookstore and chanced upon a Max Lucado book that spoke exactly what I was distressed about.
when evil happened in [Ps 11:3-4],
David declared, NOT answered:
3 If the foundations are destroyed,
What can the righteous do?
4 The LORD is in His holy temple,
The LORD’s throne is in heaven;
know what?
my God REIGNS....
....
Today's sermon on the Spirit of Sonship really touched me.
Especially the part on how calling on Abba's name can cast our fear.
How His name is protection and love for me.
How there's a double portion of anointing for me....
...
... "a child in tears belong in the arms of his daddy" - Pastor Joseph Prince -------
[...post taken from SISPEC:18, THU: 111007, 0654...]....
...the place I sleep in is split into 3 sections.
There were two in my one-third section, but the other guy OOC.
So I sleep 'alone'.
I like it... can spend more QT with Daddy.
the bunk and level I sleep in is along the tope floor corridor.
When I exit and look left... I can see the Jurong Island Tower.
The one with the flame.
Burning, burning... never ceasing to work. Like my Jesus who is seated at the Father's right, always offering intercessions for me...
....
Aww... may I find such favour.... eyes.
Shine Your countenance on me! in it is life, and Your favour be upon me like a cloud of the latter rain!----------
what Jo says is true.
convenience? conviction?
but yes, every family is different.
but should it come to a point like me?
once i admit i used to treat my home like a hotel.
my family as disposable atms.
but grace grace!
when i look at families like deacon matthew kang's, or ramona's family, i'm amazed.
but nope... its not about comparing families.
different families have different lifestyles.
but i don't want to come to a point where i don't seem to care.
because how i treat my family now, is likely how i'll treat my family in the future.
shucks... relac la. we'll see how Jesus plays this out.
went Ikea with js yest. he was upset about something.
hahaha... i don't want to get married. but i want children. i don't a wife, but i want a partner. ok that doesn't make sense. nuff' said.
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Saturday, October 13, 2007
-12:34 am
Yes yet another book out!
only this time we'll joined by our *ahem* beloved brothers from OCS.
they will be having their first bookout in the Lord-knows-when.
Treasure it people.
my pay is still $400.
man.... nevermind no matter what happens, I know I'll have enough to go Israel and buy a really good guitar for my future CG, amen.
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went for CG Today.
i TOTALLY forgot!
because tomorrow is Hari Raya, and I only found out in camp, so we got to book out super early, around 1730 we left after RO.
happy la. sad is almost everyone from my platoon has to come back 3 hours earlier to do our NDS, cause we did the first one 'wrongly'.
i've nothing to say to that.
because i realised i've developed a complaining spirit.
its quite a serious case of complaining-itis.
"wah lau eh, why we sitting here in the sun, waste time ar"
"wah lau eh, I already cleared SOC, why must still do every week? just take the first week timing la!"
"wah lau eh, can we just go already and don't waste time"
"wah lau eh, waste my time...."
boo.
what can I say?
I don't like it.
I think if I were the Holy Spirit I'll be grieved man.
so I'm curbing my tongue. cause they who would see long life, should really learn to control their tongue. its like the little rudder that steers the ship. what i say, will likely steer my attitude and beliefs.
anyway... even though i complain, i'll still do it.
"wah lau eh.... why must go outfield?"
.... "ok come lets do it!"
ok back to topic.
CG. met NPA today. i totally forgot like i was saying, i was already thinking about going home and sleep. then i checked my hp and received a msg from cookie that reminded me there was cg.
my goodness....
anyway jo was sharing some kind of checklist about how at rest we are.
like a rest-o-meter.
and she was like "i hope these questions set you thinking... etc etc"
yeah they did. abit too much.
cause i was half fighting the ZZZ monster, and half trying to concentrate on what she was saying. but i felt like what she was saying didn't make sense.
shack ar... cannot think already.
its like i must take 5seconds to decode her msg.
but... anyway cg cut my heart.
i'm not moody ryan, i'm just a combination of despair, enthusiasm, exhaustion, sian-zation, sadness, blah...
its true what jo shared la.
convenience... or conviction?
the first thing out of my mouth when crap happens shows how much at rest we are. like.... reflex like that la.
mine is: "ah shit."
praise Jesus... i'm not the only one. cause the CG was sharing also... and i realise i'm not the only one.
anyway to cut a long story short, because half the time i really really couldn't understand what she was saying.
my mind was buzzing with images of SOC and live firing, as well as images of my past as i ponder upon her questions, all jumbled up by the ZZZ Monster.
i've no idea what i'm typing either.
nevermind i go sleep. tomorrow continue.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
-8:01 am
ooh la la...
went js house stay overnight.
played his xbox 360. halo3!
dont know it feels kinda blah playing it.
he fell asleep half way.
toot. didnt get a chance to hear him out fully.
but stll glad he sorted out his *ahem* issues.
HAHA!
Daddy God what You did for him, you can do for me, and much more too!
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Arrow was great!
certain things I took home from the Lord.
I want to have a "unless it is Jesus, otherwise I do in vain" attitude!isn't it wonderful to be so carefree?
to not fear even an ounce of fear or stress or worry when I face my tests?
I admit I have such a striving, competitive spirit in me.
from young I've always been someone who strives and strives by the sweat of my hands.
in secondary school, I'll spent whole afternoons studying. no joke.... other people playing game, I'll study. I enjoyed it then.
what I dislike was to do a test and get lousy results.
man I'll curse and swear.
and I kinda realise that I put so much pressure on myself to perform.
but isn't it wonderful to say: Jesus, it is You who builds me up for this task ahead. the expectations of performance are not me on! they are on You!
and that even if I fail, its still Jesus.
HAHA!
I don't care if I make a lousy soldier. I don't know why I was so caught up in performing and performing to the point that I get so frustrated.
anyway I bumped into Steve during one of the mass lectures.
and he shared about super-abounding grace.
so refreshing.
yeah... in my weakness, His strength is made perfect.
Your grace is sufficient for me.
so what if I fail?
then I'll have even more super-abounding grace!
if GRACE alone is sufficient for me, how MUCH MORE super-abounding grace?
now does this mean I won't work hard for my tests? does this mean I fail on purpose to receive more grace!
no! as pastor said, "grace makes you want to labour more abundantly"
people walk that one mile, grace will cause me to smile and say lets go for another mile!
so that was the first revelation I caught from the sermon by Pastor Benjamin.
the second was about the eternity in my heart.how he shared about his yearning to preach that he'll preach to the sea at harbourfront. and i was like... "yes pastor I know what you mean..."
Oh! I've such a yearning to serve as a guitarist again in CG.
but never again in NPA...? hahaha!
to go back to basics and just pick up an acoustic guitar and play together.
I feel like David yearning for the water from the well of Bethlehem.
haha but nevermind... He has made everything beautiful in its time.
it is done already.
and then the last part was near the last part of the sermon and its the best part yet... =D
when Pastor Benjamin was sharing about us being arrows in the hands of the mighty warrior. and you know what.... we've all heard this before.
but i see how that
Unless Jesus makes the arrow (me), then the arrow is made in vain.
and I know and believe I'm reverently and wonderfully made!
Unless Jesus sharpens the arrow (me), then the arrow is sharpened in vain.
and I know and believe that I'm being child-trained by the Lord in my NS life.
Unless Jesus holds the arrow (me), then the arrow is held in vain.
and I know and believe that nothing can pluck me out of Daddy God's Hands.
Unless Jesus shoots the arrow (me), the the arrow flies in vain,
and I know and believe that my God is the God who can use a mere stone to knock down a giant.
and unless I open up my hands and empty out my cares, He can't fill up my hands with His love and blessings. not my close hands of self-effort! but His open hands of grace, nail-pierced, with my name engraved on them.
and during the lastest part of the sermon I just saw an arrow flying.
before an arrow hits the mark, what happens?
it flies correct?
it flies in the air, across the land, correct?
and i see how I will FLY high above all those toiling in the land beneath me!
the lands that I fly over represents new ground! It represents me breaking new ground and doing things I never thought I could.
and how far would I fly!
my God made the Heavens and the Earth. He made the whole Universe!
Think you that the arrow Jesus, the Mightiest Warrior, shoots would cover 100metres?
Nope!
This Arrow is gonna FLY HIGH ABOVE MOUNTAINS OF DEFEAT and VALLEYS OF DEATH!
This Arrow is gonna BREAK NEW GROUND!
This Arrow is gonna FLY ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE WORLD, to the FOUR CORNERS of the EARTH.my destiny is surely surely great, because I have an awesome awesome Daddy God.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamen!
Saturday, October 06, 2007
-12:09 am
i'm back and i want to rest! hehe....
shall share like tml or what.
"Shalom Jerusalem,
Messiah will come,
He'll wipe away your tears and pain,
Rejoice, Daughter of Zion"
